Release

Dark red liquid consumes my thoughts

Beautiful rubies haunting my dreams

The steel I see behind my lids

The coldness I want to feel

Cut down deep; rip my flesh

I pray for the sweet release

Lost Genarateion

(I wrote this with the intention of the spelling the words in it to be incorrect)


Win will this wurld in


How kan I go on


The wurld iz burning & the children r screaming


I am a member of the lost genarateion


Surrounded ny write smoke & lies


My memories r scattered


My dreams r shattered


I have no diwrection & 2 many adictions


I sigh as I acept wat being a member of this genarateion intitles me to: nuthing

Mona's Sacrifice (From my upcoming novel Secrets and Sins)

Darkness covered the earth, wrapping the demons and half-breed monsters in it's chilled embraced. In this time before time, only the mean survived. Compassion was a myth no one dared believed in.

Sazu understood this way of life. He had lived it for hundreds of years. Any creature that tried to face him was ripped apart, torn limb from limb. He bathed in their blood as he chewed on their flesh. Even Mona, the mother of all the half-breeds, did not get in his way.

Perched on a rock, he stares into the endless night sky. It comfort him because he knew no matter how much his world changed the dark sky never would.

In the distance, the sky lightened to a soft blue. He felt fear for the first time as it approached him, swallowing the beautiful black sky. The world itself seemed to lighten as well. The rock he sat on was no longer was black but was now gray. Panicking, he stood.

He didn't know what was happening as a strange, acidly smell filled his nostrils. He didn't understanding that the world was completely changing right before his eyes.

A giant orb of light rose from the ground, in the far distance. His eyes stung as his skin burned. Staring at the smoke rising from his skin, he wasn't sure what to do. It was the light shining on his flesh that was causing him pain.

Anger filled him as he watched his skin bubble. He snapped out with his teeth to bite the light on his arms. He tasted his own blood before pulling back. He couldn't hurt it. Howling his pain and frustration, he ran for cover.

His eyes narrowed on the cave in the distance. It wasn't too far for him to run. Dropping to all fours, he ran as fast as he could and made it to safety. The sweat rolled into his eyes as he batted at the flames on his body.

He crouched in the dark cave as he waited with the other demons and monsters. Waited for the dark to come or the world to end.

The heat the light brought with it chased them further into the cave. Huddled together, they didn't know what to do. Comfort wasn't in them to give.

Finally, the cave darkened as the air-cooled. Could it be? Did the light die on it's own? Sazu, being the strongest in his mind, had to do something. Swaying from side to side he walked out of the cave. He was ready to duck back into the cave at a moment's notice. The light was gone.

His fangs hung over his bottom lip as his smile spread across his face. The night was back. Roaring the news to the others, he raced out into the world. The dusty plains were a beautiful sight to him. Hearing a fellow demon nearby, he knew it was time to feed. With the light forgotten he slipped back into his old ways; feeding, fighting, and running.

The air was thick with the stench of rotten flesh. He knew there was a dead monster somewhere nearby, he only hoped there was still meat on it. He found a horde of demons huddled around it, picking its bones clean. Sazu had been too late. Disappointment flashed in his eyes.

The feasting stopped as the demons took notice of him. His claws extended as he braced himself for the fight. Fear glowed in their eyes as they stared passed him. Bewildered, he watched them run for the caves.

He felt the rising heat first and then noticed the world was getting lighter. The smell of his burning flesh filled his nostrils. He looked back. The orb had returned. Fear filled him as he made a run for the caves. He knew there were a number of caves in the hills that surrounded him. All he needed was one.

Once he was safe within a cave he knew they had problems, and by the confused looks on his brothers' faces he knew they were aware of the problem as well.

Mona called her children into her cave, which lay in the center of the earth. Her children were hurt and that meant she was hurt.

Sazu silently listened as they spoke of the orb of light. If only one of them could knock it from the sky and eat it, then all would be well But none could. Its rays of light protected it. While it was in the sky, their sky, none of them could leave the safety of the caves.

Mona, being the mother, had a plan. She would use the light to create her next child. It would have the ability to go into it, but would have the demon's hunger for destruction as well. With her ability to control her children she would guide it in the destruction of the light. The earth would be theirs again.

The demons and monsters watched in wonder as she opened the earth to set herself free. The light burned her, but being the oldest and the strongest she was used to the feeling of pain. Gathering the light with in her womb, she felt it merge with her eggs. She would have it's child. With the job done she went back into hiding until it was time for the birth.

Every night the demons roamed the earth, free to do as they willed. During the day they were forced to hide. Their hatred for the light grew more and more each day. Sazu had witnessed many try to take down the orb them selves, but they always bust into flames before they could even get close to it.

Mona's body baked a little more each day. The light within her stole her strength. Fluid wept from her open wounds. The demons and monsters silently mourned for her.

Her screams filled the air as the children from the light ripped open her belly. Twisting and turning, they got themselves free. The light ate away at Mona's remains as her youngest children walked free.

Unlike their brothers hiding in the caves, they liked the light. They enjoyed its warmth on their soft skin. They had even named the giant orb in the sky. They called it the sun.

The demons were angry at the youngest, convinced they had betrayed them. But they had betrayed nothing. They were true to the light that was in them. At night wars raged and blood was shed, but during the day all on earth was calm.

The young ones made their own homes and devised weapons. They were much smarter than the demons and monsters. After years of this deadly game of hide and seek it was obvious to the demons that the sun and the young ones were here to stay. Anger filled them as they decided to give them a name; man.

Flip

Spend nights, tossing and turning

With tears on my face, wet and burning

I can still feel the nightmares chasing me

I know there's something out there, waiting to appear

And whatever it is makes me so scared

The faster I go, the more it gains

My eyes are playing tricks on me

I keep seeing stuff fly across the room

I hear footsteps on the ceiling

And I'm smelling the witches brew

I hear laughter in the distance

And now a voice is telling me what to do

I don't want to listen, but I feel I have to

I'm flying through time on this trippy ride

I'm seeing witches on their brooms, flying to the moon

I see dragons eating kings, while the queens just sit and scream

I need to get a grip before I flip

Work

Twisted thoughts invade my mind

Sweet words no one else hears invade my ears

Everyday is exactly the same, it's enough to make someone go insane

I sit quietly in my chair

Needing anything to make me feel

But there's nothing...

I'm forced to live my life in wanting

Never satisfied...

Never knowing what is out there

Never...

Kind of Woman

When I was younger I was told I'd be the kind of woman men married

But that was a lie

I'm the kind of woman married men come to for fun

I'm the kind of woman who gets visited late at night

I'm the kind of woman who does what she has to just to get by

I'm not a kind woman